What Quirkyness!

Last weekend I caught a quirky movie named Mr. Mangorium's Wonder Emporium.

Well some may call me weird, but I'd like to say I'm individualistic, and uh, quirky.

A movie like that, interests me, despite its abrupt ending.

I mean, after all it's still a Fantasy movie, and that Hoffman isn't exactly the ugliest actor in Hollywood, so yeah, I give it a 6.5 out of 10.

I've meant to get back on track to my movies/popcorn obsession a long time ago and I seem to have finally gotten back on track, just before I realized today that the figure reflected in the ATM was shockingly alarming.

To curb this problem, I have sorted out my thoughts and figured that after setting aside $200 for my birthday dinner, $30 for manicure tomorrow (I've booked it a month ago), and $20 for Sec 2 class gathering, maybe $40 (or do I need more?) to standby for Zouk experience, plus $25 for the potluck session with SHHK peeps, in addition to the $138.90 I spent on Christmas gifts today, I should stop spending. Yeah. I can't shop for a LONG time anymore.

Not unless I can get a good job after my exam in Feb. And even if for the couple of Angpows that I may be receiving on my Birthday and Chinese New Year, no, I don't think I can afford to jeopardize my financial status any further.

Oh, and I haven't mentioned that the cost of living in Singapore is so bloody high now? $18 for a cab trip? $8 for a standard meal? $3 to go home on a public transport? I mean, come on lah, the rich get richer and the poor get poorer. Even the average-income families now have to downgrade to HDB flats. (At least some of them can't wait to move out of the condo. ;) )

And so I reduce to the state of getting my hair done at Toni & Guy Academy. Well if you want to think that I'm just a "guinea pig", I am! :D

But come to think of it, I haven't received a single negative comment on my hair, and almost feedback I've got, they liked it. :)

I cut it really short this time, and boy do I look mature. Of course, not when I'm in denim jumpers.

You know what's the best part? The student who did the hair for me, is desperately in need of hair models. So if you're interested, email me or tag me or something ok? I must say he really know what he is doing and he will respect your every decision, so no worries. Sadly, females only!

Well and after the movie I thought I was a bit hungry, and so I purchased this kid combo, which is a really good treat and I think I'll have it the next time I'm at Lido again (I really hate the seats).

But you know what?

I will NEVER, EVER, refuse anyone who can offer me a box of salty popcorn from Lido, what with all the butter smeared over it (a must!).


Jolly, how I wish I could have that Ralph Lauren (light blue bottle) perfume and that pair of heels from DMK. Stupid rising cost.

28th Dec.
6pm.
Not exactly my house.
But downstairs.
Heh.
I will play (fine, not literally) music!

<3

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Suckcessful

Thanks to Kenneth Lam that I was sooo happy for the past 1 and a half hours.

He introduced this collaborative website and I got to enjoy free streaming of Desperate Houswives Season 3!

Goodness!

Do you know how long I've been waiting to get my hands on that? I wanted to watch it so badly. Yes, pretty desperate as you can tell!

I've already bookmarked the page so that I can continue tomorrow or as and when I NEED to watch it. Since it's so late already and I have to turn in for a "date" tomorrow.

Right before I brush my teeth, I had to pee. Luckily for me that I turned on the lights, because I got a shock of my life, realizing I had sat on a ... a .. cluster of ants.

I don't think my eyes were playing a trick on me, but there were a lot of ants. I literally jumped up. Even until now, I'm not very sure that my *ahem* ain't feeling the creepy crawlies. Ugh.

I have no clue where they came from, but I suscept they were attracted to a stain outside the toilet bowl, just right beside the sitting pan. Panicking, I quickly used the cloth to wipe it away and kill as many ants as possible.

Mom had probably sprayed half the bottle of the insecticide since then.

I really hope it's the stain.





No, I don't want to consider Diabetes.

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The Last Day Of Delusion

Or at least I will try, to make it happen.

The Art Of Pretense. I've been fooling myself for so long.

The happier a person looks, the sadder the person is on the inside.

The desire to please everyone, seeing the need to maintain every single relationship as possible, simply because I don't see this world as a mean one.

But he said, "Earth is a place full of selfish people."
He added, "This is the real world man, you have to see it this way."

So I guess it's no more self-denial?

I think I got it all wrong.

I've changed for the worse.

Silence, whining to the loved ones, and keeping my thoughts to myself.

Before the clock strikes twelve,
Downing the booze,
Letting it take control.

Having surface fun is one thing,
But deep down trying to forget something is another.

What people see me from the outside,
Is not who I am. (You hear this like, everywhere)

But I'm sure some of them knows,
That sometimes it's just pretense.

Now I understand what the fortune cookie told me a couple of years ago.
It wrote, (somewhat loosely translated):
Do not be cooped up.
Don't bottle the feelings and problems.
Open up.
Open up to people around you who are willing to LISTEN.
If not, one day you'll go berserk.
And your bubble that can only hold up to that much, will burst eventually.

I chose not to believe.
I thought, as long as I see others happy,
I'll be cool about anything I receive.

On the contrary, the results I've received these two years certainly made the worst out of my entire life.

Not only was I "ridden on", stepped over,
I let other people have the wrong perception of me time to time again.
The Experienced said that it is because I lack the sense of urgency,
And I lost control of my life.

I halt.
I contemplated, to check if there was any sign of biasness.
But no. The Experienced was partially right.

I lost my sense of direction.
No goal, no nothing.

But, what defines "opening up", when people hear but don't listen?
What defines "trust", when they just make assumptions out of you?

It's not just school, but at home as well.
Why do they use the hard approach on me when they know I don't take it?

The Experienced said,

Time and Tide wait for no man.

True, true. Fair enough.

It's time for a change. That's the RIGHT mentality I was taught. And that's what I will try to achieve.

I felt a stab in my heart today.
The pain was so real.

Thanks to The Experienced for the valuable lessons in life, and to my Super Sister, who explained what is called Responsibility when dealing with a tough nut to crack.

I'm just ... upset.

Crying is miserable.
But not crying, makes a sorrowful life even more miserable.

Agreed?

Now let's just go to sleep. :)

Thiang, something inside you died today.

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